Targeted or Tempted

Targeted or Tempted

He crouches! He’s down in the corner. With the camera already dreamt in my mind accidentally interpreted. Is it worth running from one once it’s caught? What will they say?

Photograph 1

So, I’m in the city of Norwich and I’m headed for a normal interview on a normal day! I see out of the corner of my eye, a man with a camera. I never normally see this, of course. I’m normal, why do people want to picture me. Well, isn’t that an interesting question to ask yourself. At the time I wanted to get into the head of the photographer to understand why. So I looked into this a little more and decided to think why this was going on. Was this man writing about me, my family, both or something from his own perspective? I thought of it. And then I realized, once you have your first, they will come in thick and fast. I never caught this in the paper. I must say that is actually the hardest part, even though you may not believe. Last question, if it was your first photograph, would you look or would you look away? I will leave my answer open, so you can continue to learn your own opinion of me.

Step 2

Woops, I wrote a book. If you need a way to look at this in a positive manner, keep fighting, you will get nice gentle comments and harsh comments, but you leave it for others to judge. Is this craze, such a bad thing? Well, that is a matter of opinion. Lots, feel like keeping their privacy, and a lot would love to have a life where they can prove themselves on a grander level. The worst part I found about this is that, you don’t necessarily know what is being said about you. It’s a guessing game. Having your life blown open by others is only hard because you don’t know who to trust or what these people are saying about you.

So, I began with the help of support of myself and others build a better online profile so I had parts of my life I could be proud of and not be slated for. The majority of my presence was built by myself.

“No more trolls, I thought to myself.” I always had been bullied but they give up when you show you’re stronger.

The Video

Walking down an ordinary street in an ordinary place. Being filmed. I know why. This was when it became serious. I was beginning to get bigger online and I had the questions fired left, right and centre. People wanted to hear my story. It was a case lost and forgotten, but it was brought up again. A story like mine was hard to keep. However I decided rather than a 10 year rewind, I would stick to the current time and something a little different. I have joined several social sites and started a blog. This morning, even got in touch with me. I had help to sort this part of my story. So, the phots, videos and papers actually helped support me into the begging of a career that I never thought someone like me would ever achieve.

I also have been followed and photographed, reported and talked about for ten years. Not nice, but sometimes good. When I look back I could even say the attention helped my career, so all is well that ends well. So, man with camera.

Thanks.

Sourced from Star now, written by Jodie Mann.